EXAMS

Great, I haven't been updating my blog as often as I thought I would.

The day I vowed to blog regularly so I can look back at it later and laugh my head off, I really thought I would find time to blog again. But as you can see, I failed.

Anyway, It's end of sem 2 , the final week of school and the following week filled with exams! then I'm finally over the first year of my Masters - not quite though. I have told my supervisor that I'll be able to work full time after the exams - which means ... no late nights, partying away.

It's okay. The amount of money I'll get - I think I can get myself a lovely LV bag from PARIS. WHEEEEEEEE! The promise that I'll get an LV bag with my own hard earn money came sooner than I expected. hahhh! =p

I can't wait to take a mth of hols =))

Work-Studies-Life Balance

Ever heard of work-life balance?

It's a topic of interest for many organisational psychologists - studying factors and interventions to better allow employees to balance their work and life all together.

Interesting and helpful ain't it?

However, I have not come across any study that examine balancing work, studies and life! (That's what I'm experiencing at the moment).

I started my placement on Monday - and I'll be working 3 days a week.

Looking at the bright side - at least they are paying me, which means it's a bonus, as placements are usually FOC. BUT, three days a week is a killer. After two consecutive days of work, my body was just...dead. Tomorrow's work day again, and I'm still not sleepy yet.

The thought of me having to balance my studies, work and a life is just stressing me out even more. I wonder how people manage their time. I think I need to head for a time management workshop. I can't seem to find the time to do any uni work/assignments after working 8-9 hours a day. The only time I can find is during the weekend, which means that I won't have a life no more...frustrating isn't it?

On a lighter note, Jie's flying down to Melb in 7 days - which means I get new stuff and necessities from Malaysia. YAY!!! I can't wait to see her.

Sick - Again and Again

The past couple of weeks was just dreadful!

I've been sick, over and over again.

First, I thought i caught the H1N1 Virus.. and had to take Tamiflu.

Second, i came down with a sore throat and cough - and I thought it was Tonsillitis - So I had to take Antibiotics.

And on both occasions - my fever was freaking high lah! And yes, imagine I was bed-ridden.

ARGH!!!!

Feeling a little better today - hopefully I'll be much better tomorrow.

The sad part is, I never really leave the house - and yet I can fall sick so easily. Maybe there's something here that I'm allergic too or that's causing my immune system to shut down. I'm so sick of being sick all the time.

I'm way behind at Uni, my assignments, lectures, notes, everything that's going on.

I can't even start my placement and get paid for it - which means no income for another week.

I can't hang out or go out even for a movie - so I'm stuck at home all day and night.

I can go crazy !!!!!!!!!!

Please God, if you are reading this, Pls make this stop. I just want to be normal again ...

Holiday Break

Just came back from Canberra. It was a relaxing getaway from Melbourne for 4 days - forgetting the hectic lifestyle I've been going through. But now, it's starting all over again!

After my exams, I had 2 weeks to complete my literature review..and after 2 weeks, I finally had my winter-break. The sad part is, my winter break's only 2 weeks, actually one week considering that I have to attend a developmental and assessment centre tomorrow @ Geelong.

School's starting next week, and results were released today. Up till now, I was so nervous about my results, at the back of my mind - wondering what should I do when I fail? I kept praying that I wouldn't fail anything - and thankfully, my prayers were answered. I didn't. In fact, my results were pretty amazing... ! haha WHEEE!

Anyway, I've been waiting for my results and for my new passport before I actually book my flight to Paris, just in case I fail or smthg. Since I didn't fail anything, I don't feel bad about booking my flight to Paris with H. Daddy's gonna be happy, Mummy's gonna be happy, and I'm happy. =D

So, 2nd semester's starting soon, developmental and assessment centre tomorrow, going to be choosing a placement to start next next week..and soon, it will be exams and then I'll be off to Paris mid November! =) haha

YIPPEE! Suddenly life's filled with colours.

I'm upset.
I know I'm pretty far away from home, and yet whatever is happening back at home still hurts me like hell (Although I wasn't there to physically experience it).

I can't wait to end this.
I need a way to just SCREAM AND YELL at A.
I need to wake A up from A's sleep.
I need to really end this shit because its really not helping any of us.
I really feel like killing B.

How can you live with the guilt?
How can you sleep and wake up, knowing that there's this guilt on your back?
How can you go on living life knowing that, eventhough you claim you're happy, someone else is HURT by your actions.
How can someone be so selfish?

I know, humans are humans. We make mistakes, we are selfish, we only want happiness for OURselves and forget whoever we tend to hurt along the way. But, don't we have feelings too? Why, Why and Why.

That's all I tend to ask myself.. Why.
Its been 16 years and counting...and I still can't get the answer.

I just can't believe some people...

Neighbours? Aren't we suppose to get along? Aren't neighbours here to look out after your house when you're not home? Are we suppose to pick-a-fight with our neighbours?

But then again..some neighbours are just so fucking annoying.

Let me just keep you updated.

Almost every Saturday and Sunday morning (around 9-10am)... some dumb neighbour will start her karaoke session - and I mean, listening to the song (twice) before singing out loud - which she doesnt even know the lyrics to the song that well. Oh the best part, she chooses to do this during the weekends - and it's the only time I get to sleep in late. Great.

And today, What a day. Actually it started since yesterday. Our "lovely' neighbour got back from a one month holiday - I just found out as I have never really seen them before. So yeah... we have a shared garage where we can only park 3 cars.. and it's based on a first come first serve basis. This 'lovely' neighbours of ours have been parking their car and not moving for the whole month they were away. Fair enough - nobody complains. Hey, its first come first serve anyway yea?

Just yesterday, SHE came knocking at our railing at the balcony with her CAR KEY. Questioning me whether the two black cars are mine and if they are I should park them at the side - behind each other. I explained, that one HONDA is mine, and the other black car is our neighbour from Unit 1. SHe said OKAY and apologizes for I think being so god-damn-fucking-rude. Oh, she's from the philippines.

This morning, HER car was parked behind mine, so H went and knock on their door to ask them to move - she came down complaining and nagging etc. NVM, we left anyway. When I got back, the parking lot was empty - so its first come first serve - I park my car there yea?

THEY CAME BACK (THEY AS IN SHE AND HER HUBBY) AND REALIZE THAT MY CAR WAS PARKED THERE - CAME BANGING AT OUR DOORS, SCREAMING AND ARGUING WITH ME. Their excuse was - WE HAVE BEEN LIVING HERE FOR 8 YEARS..AND THEN SHE CHANGED HER STORY SAYING WE LIED TO HER.."

Okay.. it really doesnt make any sense - if only I had videotaped the whole freaking argument! Oh I think I forgot to mention, they are most prolly great great grandparents ! and her husband.. pointed two fingers at me and ask me to shove it up my 'ass' or 'face' (I can't remember) when I said "hey, its first come first serve man". H came back and told him off.. for being rude to me..and the OLD man, denied. And he was shaking.. and I bet he was close to getting a heart attack.

Anyway, the whole argument was about the parking lot that they claim has been theirs for the last 8 years. How effing inconsiderate is that. =/ Seriously, sometimes I think some people are just not meant to be born into this world. Don't come rationalizing with me that their old and they deserve a break - I made up my mind, that they are just senile. Old people are SUPPOSE TO BE FUCKING CHEERFUL AND FRIENDLY. NOT COCKY AND SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS. Fuck. I'm still damn pissed.

I swear, if I could burn down their apartment, I would. Fucking neighbours!

Whats wrong with being an introvert?

Can you succeed by being an introvert?

Is there anything wrong with you when you choose not to open up to people easily?

Why do people tend to judge others whether they see or talk with someone?

Questions that I need answers too.